Alone in the Sky

When the last light dims and the fires fade.

Will you be the one to shut my eyes?

Will you hold my hand?

Will you stay by my side?

Will you whisper my name to bring me back?

As the reaper closes and the light grows brighter.

Will I pierce the veil alone and unafraid?

As I watch myself and I fall away do I hold onto what I have?

Or will I let go for what I’ll find?

What will you do?

s-20120207

Endless White

Withdrawn

Empty

Shadows hide malice

Corrupt

Corroded

The taint of sin too deep

Precise

Exact

The blade inside my heart

Suffocating

Asphyxiating

Lungs cry out in horror

Trickling

Pulsating

Life spreads out to touch

Afire

Reacting

Synapses fire in vain

Dimming

Glazing

Senses fade to light

stillness

silence

the helix of my life

-s 20070424

When You Lose Your Way Read This

Hear this when you lose it all.
Listen when your hope is lost.

Scattered across a forgotten memory.

A promise.
An echo.
A song.

This fire never dies.
The ending never comes.
Just breathe and close your eyes.
Hear the will of my resolve.

I cannot compromise.
I cannot turn this off.
In these shadows I reside.
Without light I carry on.

So many pages passed as I try to find where I got lost.
So many stories told, every one further from you.
One last scream. A room with empty walls.
Never forget where I stand.
Never forget what I’ve seen.
Never forget who I am.
Never forget what I’ve been.

Killing away at the scars that hide you from me.
Tearing away at the last forgotten piece of me.
Finding a way to bring you back again.
Dreaming a way to change reality.

One more story to give.
One last life to live.
One more failure
One more wish

Bring it back.

This fire never dies.
The ending never comes.
Just breathe and close your eyes.
Hear the will of my resolve.

I cannot compromise.
I cannot turn this off.
In these shadows I reside.
Without light I carry on.

How far now?
I can’t tell you until it’s done.
Forget the end forget the horizon.
Let the story bring you along.
Without the will I hold inside.
Across the stars I paint my life.
Days blur by years fall away
Forget the light it’s not for me.

Just breathe
Close your eyes
think of me.

Can you hear me scream?

This fire never dies.
The ending never comes.
Just breathe and close your eyes.
Hear the will of my resolve.

I cannot compromise.
I cannot turn this off.
In these shadows I reside.
Without light I carry on.

When you lose all hope
Never forget these dreams
When you’re finally alone
remember all I’ve seen.

One shadow
One song

One life

Live it.

Embrace your dreams.

-s 20100412

Forward Too Fast

Stare through windows of the past
Seeing through the eyes of yesterday
Forgotten times of a forgotten life
But even then those were my eyes

Run away
Lost my way
Sky is clear
I feel no fear

We all see differently but you still can’t tell me who I am
You’re not who I met so long ago but everyone changes now and again
So take life as it goes. Fate is not up to us
I’m sorry but I never forgot you. Please don’t forget me

Run away
Somewhere I
Lost my way
Over me
Sky is clear
Inside I
Feel no fear

Who I am is not who I was
Why can’t things stay the same divided by ideas
Never stopped us before
Forward too fast but true forever

Run away
Somewhere I
Lost my way
Over me
Sky is clear
Inside I
Feel no fear

-s, CHUNK circa 2001

1 Step From the Drift Line

Collapse
Magenta rain on the backs of eyelids
Never more that one step away
Never more than one step removed
Walls of light and sound close in
Overwhelming
Judgement of one
An Empty Room
To while away eternity
One truth
Six Chambers
Whirling past tympanic membranes
Strobes of light pierce shadows
Sorrow falls from the heavens
a fingertip finds a hold
familiar
gentle
knowing
lucidity
As if for one instant the skies would part
hopeful illusion
fallen out of reach
There is no forgiveness
as bolts scream overhead
The seventh chamber
is nothing more than a mausoleum
and the others
rise
a sardonic smile crosses split lips
tightening the flexor digitorium profundis
changes mortal apathy

into eternal abaddon
Nine concentric rings
To live this nightmare
again and again

-s 20090425

The Drift Line

Holding the hands tightly
An involuntary shudder
Courses through the flexor digitorum profundus
Lungs filled with salt
A heartbeat ahead of the mistake
Lovingly wrapped in chains
Wind pounding into a tympanic membrane
Watering eyes
or is it something else
Push back the tide
to tell of this no more
and find a hole of solace
Where deaf ears and mute mouths
are the only company to keep
Inside an hourglass
Under sunlights reflection
a fond goodbye
is never heard
and a long farewell
is the final act of kindness
at the edge of sanity

The flexor digitorum profundus continues to shake

-s 20090422

1 Step to the Drift Line

A vergence
uncontrolled
as adrenaline surges through
the irony of brief immortality
and the permanence of consequences

cervical fingerprints
an unforethought imprint
of subconscious rage
dances with reality
ever changing dreams
into posthumous surrealism

an excess of auditory stimuli
an abscess of premeditation
all within the cortex

hands drowning in blood
attempt to wipe time clean of this
horror
wiping away at a furrowed brow

One way to leave this room
One answer to do away with this world
One road for rebirth
One epilogue to make this fiction

-s 20090520